“Sometimes we have to go deep inside ourselves to solve our problems.“– Patrick Star
I have missed you. I know it has been a while, but life just seemed to get in the way a bit.
For those who know me, I am a very reflective person and try to be self aware of what I am doing. Sometimes this is hard, and it can hurt to look back and see where you need to improve and the mistakes you have made. However, in looking back, you can see how much good you have done and your growth.
Less than a year has past since I moved home, and it has been a learning experience. I learned I had a lot of growing to do. I had to learn how to work more with others, focus on building new friendships, downsizing, new career, smaller town, and a really different environment. I also had to learn how to treat my body like a home. At some point in the last four years I stopped making my physical and mental health a priority. Like I said, life gets in the way. I honestly don’t know what happened, and I am not sure I have the ability to put it into words.
But, I took time and made myself a priority in my life. I started facing fears, building stronger relationships, doing things I enjoyed, made a bucket-list and started crossing things off, studied for my new career, gained new certifications, changed jobs, worked out, changed my relationship with food, spent time with my mom, and opened up to people. Has change been hard? Has change been worth it? The answer is yes.
Anything you do that is worth it is going to be hard. The age old saying that makes me sound cliche. I’m not sorry for saying it though. Anything that stretches you will be hard. Reflection can bring up a lot of things you may not expect and not all of it feels good to think on. Sometimes we cannot process things alone. That is okay. Find people you can trust to help you grow. I have had many amazing role models in my life and I am blessed that includes my family, teachers, and co-workers.
I encourage you to take time and focus on yourself. Are you the person you want to be? If not, how do you get there? What do you need to do differently? However, don’t forget to acknowledge what you did right, and don’t dwell on the past for too long. Your past is part of you and your journey, but your past is not your final destination.
With love, Mariah Kate